Do you ever feel like you’re bulldozing through tasks, to-do lists, projects and goals — but you still feel like you’re drowning?
I feel like the baggage from my old self is weighing down who I want to be Now. Baggage so huge that I’m suffocating under it, choking on it as I present my research, trying to swallow it down when others look me in the eye and ask how I’m doing, spewing it up when I write something about how I’m wrestling with God or angry with a loved one because she doesn’t show me the kind of love that I think I need from her. Baggage so heavy that my back aches and my body screams for release.
Well the good news? This is progress. It takes time to let go of the old muck and mud and to step into new ways of behavior and being.
What I know to be true? The baggage MUST be felt and exposed in order to be RELEASED. Why aren’t we talking about this more often?! We all just assume that we should be stronger than our emotions. And I say, No way!!! That is incorrect. Being with our emotions IS strength.
You want to move past what is happening now? Then feel your way through it.
Move with it until your knees shake.
Breathe with it until your inner becomes the outer.
Live with your Now before entering the next stage of your life.
It will be painful, even agonizing at times. It will feel as though your heart is being poked and slit in a million different places, but THIS is the reason we are here. To do the work. To bend, to break, and to stand tall in the root of our truth.
And that, my friends, is what being human is all about.
I hope you find the strength to be with whatever is happening in your life. **This too will pass, the good and the bad.
Just remember, it is all here for us now. The human experience, with all its faces, is here to guide you, not hurt you.
Don’t fear it, face it. Let your experience wash in you and return to the world outside.
Embrace the light and the dark. It is all here for you, waiting to be felt.
Happy weekend to you all.
**Thank you, Soc, for reminding me that it all passes, in time.